29 August.3:10am

嘿，我好像很久没来写一写了
跟她一切结束后，我不知该如何是好

我好想承认一件事
我很喜欢她
我真的爱上她
真的
我的初恋

但是一切只是一场梦
梦..
醒后噩梦开始了
真实，现实的噩梦

到哪里都会想她

过了八个月
泪流无数
我不知我是谁了
失去依靠
我就像一朵随时会枯掉的花..一样地弱

最重要的人离开了你
可笑的是
伤心绝望的只有我
哭也是吧

我很累很累

让我爱上她却又抛弃我

如果她知 就不应该靠近我
不该说喜欢我
不该牵着我的手
不该抱着我
不该跟我说甜言蜜语

到最后却也不肯回答你曾经喜欢我的问题
只给我一个烂理由..
我崩溃了
那天是八月八日
我又哭了

失去我最想珍惜的人
我爱的人
我好想永远在一起的人

原来她只存在两年

她是个狠心的人

我不想看到她了

很痛

现在的我是个无心的人
心已碎了
没了
完了

2 years of fake things..

memories were fake too..

tiring!!
tmr is linen day..sure die..
die laaaa!!
haha
but working is quite fun.
those aunties are funny plus my group not that bad.
got ntu students too!
get to know some ppl..
i think?

legs feel like breaking now..;sigh

henxindeni wo zenmu yizhizai xiang..

想看到你
却又害怕
会很痛 很痛 很痛

矛盾

真想你
但知道你不在了
我
好没用

好累 心很累 身体很累 眼睛很累

为什么你能这么狠
让我喜欢你 又抛弃我。。

没用的我只会哭

tiring td!
first day without slacking.haha
changed bedsheet and pillow case..
i think my buddy and i did about 50 plus rooms!
muscle aches tmr!
but quite a fine day td;]

in the progress of forgetting..

never wanna see her ever..

never know i will feel so hurt
never know i will shed so much tears
never know she will leave me one day
never know everything was a lie
never know i was so useful
never know my most important person will be the one that caused me tremendous pain
never know that i will want to forget something so badly
never know loving someone will be painful

never know..

everything is finally over..
her reply came..
and i cried badly..

things were bad..pain..

everything was lies..
promises were lies..
memories too..

she didnt even want to reply my qn..i was asking something serious yet she...
she used wingstofly..but i guess that is wtf..only realised it today..

two years were really a dream..a painful one..
i actually hope everything did not happen at all..

i dont want those memories...
too painful for me

my bday today..
both english and chinese..
it should be a happy day..

but you are not here with me..

i feel sad..very sad..

thought of last year..you were still by my side..but now you are gone..

nevertheless..thanks yx,gp and st:D

i will be emo-ing at home instead if i didnt went out td with you guys

Thankyou!

一睁眼
心情如昨晚一样差
一整天
心感到好凉好凉啊

我
又陷下去了

越陷越深

好像一个无底洞

爬不上去了

笨蛋

我就是很恨自己..

today was a fine day!
went out with gp and yx..
we went to ntu first then went to jp..
then went to arcade!
this time i spent one credit agn!:)
then we played bball..
omg our hands..

then we went railmall..they wanted to treat me some breakfast meal but too bad they only have it on weeekends!
so they decided to treat me dimsum instead!

thus we went to eat mee!
a super filling meal..

but luckily my digestive system is gd!haha
yx was shouting while walking..saying too full..
it was hilarious.. i havent have a good laugh since dont know when..
since she left..?

and i walked home after that!saved bus fare:)


it is time to ask soon..
where is my courage?

'如果我从未品尝过温暖的感觉，
也许我不会寒冷；
如果我没有感受过爱情的甜美，
我也许就不会这样痛苦；
如果我从未曾离开过我的房间，
我就不会知道，我原来这样孤独。
假如我不曾见过太阳，
也许我会忍受黑暗，可如今，
这太阳，把我的寂寞照耀的如此荒凉。
我生命中的温暖就这么多，全部给了你，
叫我以后怎么再对别人微笑'

quoted from 风之五两

i dont want song..

i want you..