a little sadness

felt pretty awkward this morning when i arrived in the office.

i knew there was a new seating layout, and i was offered to sit at the spare seats with the biz team who I'm working with (I'm used to being part of their team but i was moved to another team due to org restructuring and yet i'm still supporting them in my scope of work)

everyone else had their stuff moved to their new seats, even those who weren't in the office last week or hadn't arrived yet,

...except for mine.  

feeling a tingle of sadness right now. 

i guess that's life. 

and i can't be choosy any more.

having a slight regret in my decision made last august. 

but hey, what's done is done.  

i can only look forward, and keeping myself sane and having a little hope in life

talk again soon. 

3rd interview of the week

Today, my 2nd round of interview had two portions:

1) technical sql (morning) 

2) case study (afternoon) 

I think I did well for morning session but I did terribly for the afternoon session.

Super depressed now. 

Feels like a failure. 

Don't really know what I can do now. 

Filled with negative emotions and thoughts; demoralised, unmotivated and feels like things are meaningless now. 

I don't know how long more I can carry on. I was hoping to get an offer this month. Now chances are slim. 

Why I didn't do well. 

I just need feedback to improve better. 

September

Hello

It's September. 

This is my 6th month in my job search. 

3 more interviews this week. Please let me suceed in at least 2. 

Jiayou! All the best to myself.

I will write more later.