Wednesday, October 29, 2025

time to reflect and think

2 months to the end of year, I didn't feel like I become a better me as compared to a year ago

I didn't learn much this year, simply just learning how to use a tool that is less used in the commercial world.

This year, there's a lot of buzz around agentic ai. It would be really nice to know how to develop it, the architecture and the tools. However, I guess depending on the tool that is use - Best if it's widely used by other companies. So here's one more thing to learn.

Now, 10 months into this company, I'm still quite shocked that the infrastructure is that bad... I guess it's bad because of political reason. They just want to make sure their people have work to do. It's just so stupid. 
No choice, i just to bear with available tools. There's nothing i can do right - learn the tool and hoping that it can resolve the issues that I would never have in my previous company. 

It's pretty sad, and not motivating at all. 

Recently, my manager asked me if there's anything that I'm interested in. However, the scope feels very narrow here - everyone is just trying to fight for the juicy stuff (same and very similar projects). Just feels very tiring, mentally - you just have to fight for survival. 

But then, you might be given up even going through that.

Never mind. 

I guess I just have to focus on improving myself. Gotta get myself prepare for a night call soon. Shall type more soon. I'm just lazy to switch on my com after work.   

Friday, October 17, 2025

some thoughts

Feels hard to get replies when your job grade is not high enough.

I guess this is the same everywhere.

Always have to get the Manager's help. 

Over here, your work has high dependency on other people. This sucks as well. 


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