got a shock ytd night..received a scholarship interview invitation..
with my unstable emotional and mental state..i dunno how m i going to face this interview..
now..i m still wandering in my past..refusing to acknowledge that things had changed...
cant believe that she has changed...
or has my memory been tainted...everything in my mind now were fake?everything that i had gone through was fake?whatever she said is fake?or have i made it up all myself?
i no longer know what m i now..
very lost..no directions..
since my map and compass was lost..


sometimes i really hope that my head was knocked..and i forget everything..including myself...
and probably i can start anew..