i realised i hate going to places that full of memories of her
perhaps it isn't hate..it just that..
it will always remind me that she is not by my side anymore
it's painful..
i can feel my heart sank every time when my memories came flowing back..

i rmb that 2 years ago, after studying in the lib, we went to have dinner.
we ordered curry chicken with bread ( my parents ordered that today..)
if i hadn't rmb wrongly, she just came back from malaysia..
and we ordered another bowl of food.

she said that i had grew thinner while measuring the size of my arms with her hands.
and told me that i hadn't take good care of myself when she was away..haha.that was a cute side of her..
and she 'forced' me to eat more!

she is someone who afraid of eating spicy food..but i don't know why she love zinger burger so much(does she still like zinger?i think i haven't touch zinger since i last ate it with her)
but surprisingly,she managed to eat some of the curry chicken
and i rmb that the curry chicken was quite spicy
at the end,i was given no choice but to finish it..haha
at then..it was simple yet filled with happiness..
something i won't be able to feel again..i guess

these few days, some memories will just come across my mind..
i wonder..if the person that i miss, will she ever miss me for even once?

addicted to reading manga..
guess i got to have more self control.
gambatte!

慢慢习惯没有你的生活
慢慢回到一个人的生活

i nearly did something unforgivable!
..i nearly ruined myself for not being an honest person!
luckily there was gp beside me!
heng..
dk what got into me..
scary..
nvm,i wont do it ever again!i promise!

every week i would always search for songs in sogou..
normally they were love songs..
and i would always choose the song which really represents what i want to tell her..
the last time i 'sang' to her was after my bday last year..

issues that are related to relationship,i always know that i m very stubborn..
towards her, i was indeed stubborn..ha.
ya,i should heed yx's uncle's advice-'change it-dont be too stubborn'
and i wasn't allow to just try but it is a must..
i just have to do it huh..
but guess what..last night i dreamt about her and i remembered dreaming about it..normally i don't rmb what i dreamt..
i think the best solution i have now, is to just let it happen in dream and only in dream..but in reality i just have to give up and stop thinking about it..

time heals..hopefully

here's a song..
hope that the one that is in my heart will like it.;)



张杰 - 今生今世

词:李焯雄 曲:曲世聪

太阳弹回去 一轮明月
花瓣飞回去 芳香你容颜
时针倒回去 赶上了昨天
回到那一年 你身边

破镜再重圆 沧海桑田
眼泪跌不碎 只认得眼里温热
不曾说再见 永远还有明天
回到那一天 初见面

慢动作将伤口愈合
雨把绿色 归还给沙漠
快乐还给你的酒窝
你依然把我遗憾 变圆满
能遇见 就是缘
哪怕 就匆匆一眼
我们 注定要相恋
不改变
思念 像无形红线
轮回 缘起再不灭
今生 等待你出现
到永远
能遇见 就是缘
哪怕 就匆匆一天
我们 注定要相恋
不改变
思念 像无形红线
轮回 缘起再不灭
流连 对你的眷恋
到永远

seems to be quite a long time since i last wrote something.
gomen ne

many things happened in the holidays.
and holidays are ending soon..
in 2 days time.
that's quite sad.

i think i spent quite many days in hall because of inter hall games (IHG)
first time i played a real softball match
first time i played a real basketball match
quite a learning experience( quoted from someone,haha)

dont know why, everytime when i play ball game,
i just cant stop smiling and having fun
i will become someone that isnt my usual self, i guess.

hope time will really heal my empty soul..

i sprained..my finger again.
but this time is my pinky.

the last time i sprained my finger..you were there.
by my side.
remembering it still hurts
i dont think i can forget..
memories just stay..
but you not here anymore.

and i passed my driving today.
something to feel happy.
but after a while i dont feel the happiness anymore.
since i cant share to the most important person
that person who can still influence my feelings in an instance
ha.
it feels sad instead..
i know everything is just a dream..
nvm,shall sleep soon.
gdnight!