gonna sleep now.
exercised too much td..
hope that i have 30 hrs a day
which is sth that u will wish for right

where can i find u?

am i at the acceptance stage yet?

i guess not..

looking back at the messages, i guess i am really in some kind of dream for those 2 years

i can't find you anymore

'where are you?' is repeating in my head..yet no answer can be found

i regretted not asking if you still remember everything that you said

why am i the only one who rmbs everything (stage of denial huh)

but everytime i read the msg, i rmb why i ly so much..

don't know if i should laugh or i should be sad..(confusion of emotions)



dreamt that u moved..i have lost even the chance to look at yr hse..
anger starts to flow through my body when i am awake..
angry that i was so useless even in a dream

上帝 是否听见我的声音
前方道路已经偏移
滂沱大雨让我看不清
哦眼睛 被弥漫的谎言蒙蔽
压力压到不能呼吸
难道没有改变的余地

如果这是一场战役
因为你我不会放弃
走下去 我愿意跟随你
最后一击
如果我不行了到底
让我死在你的荣耀里
这是我们最后的约定
因为我相信你

上帝 是否听见我的声音
前方道路已经偏移
滂沱大雨让我看不清
哦眼睛 被弥漫的谎言蒙蔽
压力压到不能呼吸
难道没有改变的余地

如果这是一场战役
因为你我不会放弃
走下去 我愿意跟随你
最后一击

如果我不行了到底
让我死在你的荣耀里
这是我们最后的约定
因为我相信你

歌曲:相信你
演唱:张震岳



why cant u trust me?

had problem sleeping last night
and woke up 3 or 4 times

is it because of the dream

i don't know

was reading the article for my critical thinking
the topic was quite familiar..i guess
which is grief

and i just found out something
Four Steps to Grief Recovery
Adapted from: What To Do When Someone Dies
Buz Overbeck - Joanie Overbeck
TLC Group - Dallas, TX 1995

STEP ONE --- Talk About Your Loss
STEP TWO --- Read books and stories of people who have experienced a similar loss
STEP THREE --- Write about your thoughts and feelings
STEP FOUR --- Exercise your body


i actually did some of it,almost all?
i definitely did step 3!haha
step 4 is something i did too
whereas for step 1 and 2, not much though
it is hard to tell someone even though they are my close friends
but i did talk to them abt the issue..briefly..

so this is quite true.haha.kk back to work!

林俊杰【简简单单】
编辑:音乐虫子

我们都是泡沫轻轻一碰就破
眼泪是爱的花火
昨天就像飞机穿过我的窗口
我什么都没有
我摊开了双手你予取予求
直到你想自由
痛苦的时候我不会闪躲
就像树叶甘心为春风吹落
只是简简单单的爱过
我还是我
简简单单的想过
就不算白活
简简单单的疯过
被梦带走
当故事结束之后
心也喜欢一个人寂寞

a song that i kept listening to after the beijing trip

i actually sat in front of my table for 5 hours..
quite impressive
although i didnt spend all of the time studying
laptop is indeed a distraction
shall need to enforce more self-discipline.

i guess i m quite used to study without you
'time' is really a medicine or perhaps it posseses the ability to numb..
i don't know

ok,carry on reading!mugging resumes..

i m tired.
guess it's the flu.

and i spent 2 hrs searching my jc maths file
finally found it
flipping through
i saw yr handwritting on my notes

it sure brings back memories
and imy once again..
screw me.

one year has passed
so fast
unknowingly
without you

i m still alive

and ironically, i saw you in my dream
the happy thing was that you appeared as the one who i knew.
when i was awake
i tried hard to get back to that dream
i did
but it lasted only for a while

how i wish i could get back to this dream everyday
it's futile
i know
it's just a hope
that pushes me on everyday

just let it be the motivation for me just for a little while more

ytd was tiring.
and i didnt do much studying..
that's bad

anw a late happy valentine to everyone!
i didnt prepare any present for anyone
felt quite bad
but normally, v day is just a normal day to me
even though i tried to give something to someone..
that someone may not want it.haha

ok!start studying!

gotta calm down

spent 3 hours plus just on doing stats tutorial..
don't know why the time spent was so different as compared to stats in jc.
while doing the tutorial, stats that i once knew started to come back bit by bit..
and indirectly, it reminded me of you..

what can i do..
i hate remembering stuffs that were related to you
but i have no choice, i had to remember..

m i going tmr?
if you not going, perhaps i will be going..
that's what i planning to tell jy.
i shall think about it again tmr..

sch starts again..
mugging has to be resumed
this year is definitely different from last year..
i have to make it different..

holidays are over!
school starts tmr.
and i didnt study during the long break!
sigh
have to carry my heavy books to hall again.

dreamt about you for 2 days
i dunno why you will appear in my dream
first one was nice
second one was quite bad
i guess i cant change even though how much i want

yx said that soon there will be a medicine that will make you forget part of your memories.
that sounds quite interesting
maybe i should take that..
and i can really start anew

nvm,life goes on.
i have to move on

happy chinese new year everyone!

2 more hours to chinese new year.
angbaos are always something to look forward to.
this year is definitely different from last year.
during last year,i wasn't me.i think i could say the whole of last year,i wasn't being myself.
i was at my most terrible state..

but time really possess 'healing power'..


however, i think there are some things that i can't change it..
i m still thinking about her.

'Is she in malaysia now?'
'Is she having fun now?'( i guess perhaps she is having fun now)
'how is she?'

those questions will never receive any answer.
but i still hope all the best for her..
even though i m the only one in the world who remembers everything..the only one who is still holding onto the memories..

but i will like to say to you
Happy CHinese New Year.

吴克群(没关系)

你离开的时候没有一句
没有一句对不起、
对不起是我太执迷
你离开的时候没有一句
没有一句话说清楚
清楚离开的原因


它能够给你安全感不只梦想
谁还在乎一起傻傻说过的那些话
没关系 我们分了没关系
这不是你的问题
是我没那个福气
没福气却又爱上你
就算哭了没关系
这不是你的问题
痛痛快快给我一首没关系

你离开的时候没有一句
没有一句对不起、
对不起是我太执迷
你离开的时候没有一句
没有一句话说清楚
清楚离开的原因

它能够给你安全感不只梦想
谁还在乎一起傻傻说过的那些话
没关系 我们分了没关系
这不是你的问题
是我没那个福气
没福气却又爱上你
就算哭了没关系
这不是你的问题
痛痛快快给我一首没关系

爱情里面总有一个比较傻
而怪就怪我怪我放不下
no no no
痛苦给我 幸福留给你和他
没关系 ,没关系 没关系
没关系 我们分了没关系
这不是你的问题
是我没那个福气
没福气却又爱上了你
就算哭了没关系
这不是你的问题
痛痛快快给我一首没关系
我没关系 我没关系