一瞬间

滴答 滴答 滴答..
一秒 两秒 三秒..
表里的针循序地响着

时间慢慢地流逝
不为任何人而停留
不断不停地走

就这样
一瞬间
也过了一年

人总是嫌时间过得太快
我也不例外

快得.喘不过气
快得.让我不去想你
快得.考试好像昨日刚完

但考试又来了
多六天四个小时

冲吧:)

hearing my name,
i turned around, reached out my hands to get the blue papers which holds 20% of my overall score.

i have underperformed.a careless costs me 6.5 marks..if i had not wrote those 3 words.
and worst of all, my project got a b-
don't know if my mid terms can pull it up.
and my group seems to have conflict but the good thing is that it is already the last week of the semester.

so let me use this chance to revise for ob.
using the team effectiveness model.
starts with
Team Environment:
under communication, we had face to face communication but most of it is through emails and chatting on msn. which i guess was one of the reason of our failure
emotion intelligence seems to be lacking as it is obvious that there are others who were feeling unhappy.( i think i feel it..)
while under reward which is 15% of our overall marks..hmm is it a good motivation for us? results had shown that it has not been a good motivator.
leadership?i guessed we had shared leadership.

Team Design:
Task characteristic - complex because we required knowledge about earnings management and accounting knowledge. and we also have reciprocal interdependence as work is being exchanged around through email
Same goal-get it done and do it well..and we are a group of 5(small)( Team size)
Team composition-
i guess we are cooperative.everyone did their part and have unanimous agreement.while communicating is basically through email which i guessed was bad.even though there was better communication between my friend and i because perhaps we are both year 1, accounting student ( team cohesiveness -member similarity) and we are tasked to the same work.
we do have team diversity-marketing student and accounting student, so we do have different perspectives on several things.(for example implications of risk...)

Team Process:
team development..hmm i thnk we did go through the 5 stages..
team norms:
we shared food during seminars
my experience-last semester, my group project was poorly done..so i guessed that perhaps this semester might be similar which happened so( negative self-fulfilling prophecy?)

team cohesion
we didn't have team success nor much similarity( which i mentioned earlier)
we did not have any team building as well..i guess

team trust
i guess we have knowledge based trust, we knew who is better for the module who is not..


now all depends on the final paper.
i will have to finish one paper td

gambatte!7 days left.time flies

countdown

11 days to accounting..12 days to ob..

i think my presentation was bad just now..
i was nervous and spoke fast..
and i am the only one who was being posted a question by the teacher!
(how bad it is..)
sigh, guess i requires more practices and opportunities to present

eyes feel tired now,
mocha doesnt seems to be working on me today

okay, list of things to do today!
1) Elective assignment
2) Stats- revise one chapter and do paper
3) OB!!
4) Marketing tutorial questions
5) Accounting revision..( maybe i shall do this first)

and sleep at 12!
shall force myself to sleep
i guess i am used to seep at 1 or 1 plus
it's hard to sleep at 12 plus!
nvm, shall change the habit today:)

feelings? any?

how should i feel?

felt nostalgic
when taking that particular bus which i used to take with you

seeing the bus stop where we always waited for our bus
i seems to see our shadows,
at those seats, we were there, with our bags, smiling, talking, playing around
you were holding the long,red wallet that i bought for you
while my hand was holding my ezlink card

the pavement that we used to walk everyday on the way to school..
the traffic light that we crossed everyday
the bus stop that i used to wait for you
your house block that i used to wait and walk to every morning
the lift lobby where i used to send you off
the benches that i sat everyday
the butterflies that i felt in stomach when you are not coming down
your voice that i yearn to hear everyday
the smile that i loved
the cuteness that you showed

everything that has you seems to be coming back

perhaps i didnt bury deep enough
guess i have to dig deeper..and deeper and deeper

deep enough for you to not surface anymore

"Yes, it really was a fairy tale. A pretty girl reached out her hand to me and ... ... said shi'ne!" - Ohana Matsumae

it was hilarious

hmm spending 25 mins maybe is not eating too much time for revision..
shall watch the next episode next week

a small wish

your smile was what brightened my days
my moods swing with yours
like a mirror
like n3l

now
how i wish i can see your smile once again


even though it's not for me

sense of relief
my busy week has finally over..
but not really over
i still have
2 assignment for elective
Accounting Seminar Question
Marketing Textbook to read
Ob to revise
and Stats to do

But i shall mention what i had accomplished this week.
Elective-70% done
Marketing-20%presentation
Stats-10%quiz

hmmm now it doesnt look much.haha
but the week was definitely tiring.
14 days plus 5 hrs left!
got to push myself

Jiayous to you too.

N'sync - Thinking Of You

I Drive Myself Crazy


(Nowles/Rich/Shipley)


Ohhh..oh...
Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you...
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me (Just how good you were to me)

You confessed your love (you confessed your love)
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free...
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I've only got myself to blame...yeah...

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you...
Made a mistake
Let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do (wanting you the way that I do)

Why...didn't I know it

How much I loved you baby?
Why couldn't I show it
If I had only told you
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance...

(guitar break)

Wanting you the way that I do...
I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
I drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake (made a mistake)
Let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy (I drive, myself crazy, crazy, crazy...yeah)
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
Let you go baby

I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do...

i m really tired

cant believe that i actually kept laughing for the past one hour.
was watching happy together- Cinderella's step sister
it was totally funny.

accidentally saw this video while listening(plus watching) to the playlist that i chose
maybe shall watch other happy together episodes some time after exams

21 days left

flipping through my jc notes
is just like unlocking my book of memories that i had tried to bury in the deepest end of my heart(brain)
click click click..,
is the sound of locks unlocking,
for every page i flipped

that's why i hate looking back at my jc notes
i hate myself for searching shadows of you
remembering your every sound your every move
that does not exist now

a silly thought came into mind:
do u think of me when you saw something related to those 2 years..like me?
i bet you dont.

it's late.better go off to sleep.
goodnight.

Ironic

wanted to know the ending.. so i read as fast as i could

but after i finished the book, i felt a sense of emptiness..

no sight of my card in the transparent card holder really gave me a fright just now
throwing everything out of my bag
my file, my wallet, my sweet, my clicker, my tape, my tissue...

my card was no where to be found.
the first word that came into my mind was 'die'..
second thought: 'my 50 dollars is going to be gone'..
third thought: ' i really saw it just now!'
after few minutes of finding..feeling cold sweat on my palm,
i saw my beloved card lying on the chair beside me..

i m really stupid..right

really hate losing things ..
especially after you left

a pill of 0.5cm in diameter(or less), empowering you 100 percent instead of 20 percent of your brain power, effect that lasts for 24 hours
within these 24 hours,
your power is
limitless

who in the world will not yearn for such power?
but holding that much brain power in your hand is scary as well.
and an important point to take note is it has adverse effect on your health
and you are probably tying your life on a rope that is attached to the end of the cliff
and this rope is gonna snapped anytime.

after the movie, a corner of my heart, i secretly hope that such power will bestow on me.. but that just lasted a few seconds.

but i was lost when the movie ended..didn't really understand the ending but overall, the movie plot is quite fascinating

quite surprisingly,
i could remember my dream so clearly when i opened my eyes
and the funny thing that the particular person kept changing

and i dreamt of st!haha.
i remembered that we were buying drink
and all of the drinks are so expensive..most are different types of coffee (eg. cappuccino, latte..)
then i ordered the normal coffee that cost about 2 dollars plus and the cup is super small!very small.

then the rest, i cant really remember it now.
guess that memories of happenings in the dream deteriorated over time.

if i tell u i miss you
will u come back?

flip to the right and flip the other to the left
a photo appeared
smiling faces
my first photo that i took so willingly
now, even if people will to see this photo, i guess i wont feel any sense of fear or nervous

definitely is someone who was important
very important

mid terms coming tomorrow.hope i will be alright
better not to hope
i will be alright
since i promised not to be naughty
so i wont break it.

April fool

unfamiliar slippers greeted me when i opened my door in the morning.
were trying to find my slippers but effort was futile.
i strained my eyes and saw 'HAHA april fool!' paper were attached to the unknown slippers.
suddenly remember td is 1st april..april's fool day.
no choice, i wore the slippers
and luckily, i found my slippers along the way to washroom

and guess what..i knew who is the culprit after confession done
but nevertheless, this prank sort of brought hall people tgt.
not bad roomie!
hope u wont get karma.haha


trying to find my resume..clicking and searching through the few thumbdrives that i have.. and i accidentally opened the file with pieces of memories that i was trying to forget

i guess i was really afraid of her getting angry.
and the fact that she got angry with me so easily, had shown definite indication that heart breaking events were coming to get me soon.. and it did
but i tried to avoid and run away..guess that's not how things should be done

a year has passed..things seems to be less painful..