memories of you

few years back..
we were young..

a day in mid may..
we went to buy a present for our friend whose birthday is the same as my mum..
a book..by jodi picoult..it was red
we were in a bookstore
after studying in the public library..

we were talking about presents..
you were saying about roses..flowers..
you said you don't need it..flowers are quite a waste..

unconsciously..
i didn't mean any harm..
i said,' i didn't say i will be buying that for you..'

i was joking.
in my mind..i was thinking what present should i buy for you..
since i only had just about 10 plus days
to think..
to buy..
the best present for you..

but you took the joke seriously..
i didn't know..
you laid your head on shoulders..
you cried..

i was..
shocked..
very shocked..
i was sad that i made you cried..which i will never want to..
and you left after we bought the present
i had to meet my parents who were at the shopping mall..
i tried to chase after you..
you didnt bother to stop ..
i chased..
you walked even further..

helpless..
with an empty mind..
i walked back to the shopping mall..
pressing my phone buttons..madly
i sent a msg to you..
apologising..

waiting for your reply..
it seemed that years had passed..

i asked my friends for help..
because i really really didn't know what to do..

it was a joke
a joke..

then you replied..
you forgave me..
saying that you misunderstood me..
saying that you took my every words seriously..

after that day..
i was careful with my words..
i never want to hurt you..
really..

but will you..
do you even remember the feeling that you had
the feelings that is just for me, once upon a time..
will you?

8 days more..
last time?
maybe..