It has been
awhile since I last wrote a post…
Time passes
fast…or should I say fly…
Just in two
days, I will be leaving KH
Just less
than two weeks, I will be leaving TW... back to Sg.
Days passed,
things happened…
There are
good and bad, happy and sad…
Met people…
Try new
stuff…
Had a good
dream last night..
But they
say dream is always the opposite as reality..
Fear started
to ignite in me…
It grows..as
I stepped out of my room, the dorm…
I don’t feel
good at all..
But I told
myself…I shouldn’t be doing this…at least not when I am with my friends..
I did
it..fortunately…
But once I stepped
back my room…
The fear..
The uneasiness
starts to grow again…
Days
without internet really left me with nothing that I can do to stop or reduce
the fear..
The dream
of seeing the friends that I treasured…
The fear of
losing them…
Just because
of…my personality…
I don’t know
if I should be pro-active…
It is the
fear of getting hurt that stops me from getting in touch with my friends…
I might be
disturbing them..or
It is just
one-sided…
I don’t know
whether this is the end-effect of the painful event that I felt few years back…
I started
to fear…
Lots of things…which
I won’t tell to anyone…
It’s hard
to tell…
It will
always remain a grief…
That is the
only way
I have to
bury it..
Deeper and
deeper…
One more day
before I can have internet back..
2334 (22
June)
