Endless Anxiety

Continuous anxiety throughout the night..

after I received an offer by shopee.

Shouldn't I be feeling a sense of happiness for getting a job offer after months of searching? 

I did feel a sense of joy when I heard about the offer package but anxiety swept through after my call with the HR. 

Is this a role that I am searching for? 

I definitely looking forward to a variety of opportunities to be better...

But is the environment suitable for me? From the conversation with the interviewers and the experience through the interview process, actually I felt a sense of rejection towards the company. It felt like they are only care about the techniques you can bring to the company but not you as a person... 

There wasn't any personal questions, just case study questions all the way. I understand it is a technical role...but I just felt that they weren't interested to see who I am as a person...whether I am suitable for the company or the team in terms of culture fit. There isn't any personal touch, I felt like they are treating me as a worker that had to put in my whole life for the work. 

I don't know how they decided that I am more suitable for the user behavior team when I completed only 6 out of 8 questions, and they called me for business analytics team initially. 

After the hiring manager round (round 2), they decided that I am more suitable for the initial team without giving me any reason. Doesn't it sound dubious? 

The head of regional bi also didn't seem interested in our interview. We ended it in 18-20 mins when it supposed to be 30 mins. 

Even though the HR is very prompt.. Offer was communicated to me the 3rd day after my last round of interview. But...sigh...

This has been in my mind since last week.