took half day today cos felt super unprepared...
managed to answer some qn that i have in hand..
and i realised..i kept thinking abt the same person all day long..
from the moment that i open my eyes,walking to lrt station..travelling in train..walking to office...typing in contacts..packing my bag..waiting for bus..walking home..and even when i m back at home...

i know i m crazy right now...

just read my bday wishes from last year...it hurts me again..when i saw those words again..."i appreciated you as a close friend". do you rmb that my face turns black that day and u asked me why? becos i was wondering was i only a close friend to you?

u wrote"next year will be a better year for you"
no..it wasnt..u left me..i have never felt this lost..this helpless..this pain before...u act as if i was a stranger...cold...
the smile that always brighten my day.. it seems that i could no longer see it again..only from photos i had..

will you come back?

my mum asked me what i want after i got my result..
do you know what is the first thing that came into my mind..
it was you..i just need you..just stay as you are for the past two years...
just dont forget what you said to me..the days we spent..i just want that..
but i know i cant say it to my mum huh...
she can do nth about it even if she allows or know about it...you seems to walk away from me...


and i landed in hell..