went to my cousin's wedding dinner yesterday.
a happy occasion.
i felt happy for the couple but a sense of sadness was unavoidable..
u were on my mind 90 percent of the time.
what can i do.

i drank.
beer.
first time..
feel like drinking more but have driving the next day..

why i will still feel sad.
why.
why i allow things to happen even though i knew there would never be a happy ending.
i m just stupid.

ate a lot during the dinner..
ate few plates of rice( not the normal white rice) luuomifan..
it's nice:)