2 hours more to 2011..
this year seems to pass so fast..
without you..

this year was a year that was painful..
experienced something that can hurt me even now..
can i forget it?and start fresh with the new year coming?

when i thought of this,my heart sank..
cos it is hardly possible even though how much i convinced myself that i have to do it and i can do it..
is it because my mental strength was too weak?or did i not put enough effort to forget?

i noe the answer..
it is totally hard to forget
even though i knew the reality..she is gone..forever..and..ever..
n how much i wish she will be back even just for one month,one day, one hour or one minute..
it just impossible..

i dont know how things happened between us..i dont know you..i dont know myself..
i dont know how those two years were spent..

all was just a dream..

okay, a new year..maybe i should really try..
try to..forget you..
try to..erase..every part of you from my memories..
every part..
so i can return to my original position..

anyway
an advance HAPPY NEW YEAR!

exams were over.
and holidays has passed for a week..
that's fast..
many things that i want to do
but i dunno how to do..
confusing right
haha
nvm,shall make full use of tmr and the rest of my holidays.
cycling,drawing,listening to music,watching manga,exercise..
and of course spend time with friends;]

and prob..

i m really nothing to you..

dunno why i had saved some of our conversation for last 2 years..
and dunno why i went to open it..
it is my pandora box..

i rmb why i was so sad the beginning of this year..
rmb how pain it was..
i must be stupid

i miss you dearly..

so much..
and i dunno why..

i m supposed to forget everything..

我是傻瓜吗

既然没发现那只是一场梦

你是那么靠近我

能碰到你

能抱着你

能闻到你 一切太真了

你知道我多高兴吗

在你说声 对不起

我真的好高兴

但是梦里的你 是一年前的你

你带着那旧旧的眼镜 头发绑得很整齐

你样子是我脑海的你 那个说爱我的你

梦醒时 我才发现你原来只是一场梦

真的太笨了

是我太想你了吗

i m the most silly person on earth..

nutella

when was the first time that i try eating nutella?
it was you
you who made that nutella spread with bread for me.
first time trying nutella which you always mentioned how nice it was
first time someone other than my parents prepared my breakfast.

it was perhaps the sweetest bread that i had eaten.

i think it is because you had added a special ingredient : 'aixin'
aixin is something a naked eye cannot see but you can feel.quoted from you

normally i can finish a bread within few mouths
but at that time, i rmb eating it slowly..very slowly..it was the sense of happiness..

now i wonder..
did you ever like me..
why you did so many things for me yet you can be cruel..you left me unknowingly..hurting me with words,with actions..
it was painful..

now..
whenever i had nutella spread with bread..
i thought of you..
the one who first made my bread with nutella..
and yet none of the bread was as sweet as the first time i ate it.

很想看到你
却不想看到你
因为你不是她了

真矛盾

那我只能..

从远远望着你吧

我们的缘分已尽了

多久了，我们不曾碰过

每当我以为我碰到你时
心似乎在那一瞬间停止跳动
我居然怕碰到你

因为会很痛 很痛

算了读书吧!

从你眼睛看着自己 最幸福的倒影
握在手心的默契 是明天的指引
无论是远近 什么世纪
在天堂拥抱 或荒野流离
我爱你我敢去 未知的任何命运
我爱你我愿意 准你来跋扈的决定
世界边境
偶尔我真的不懂你 又有谁真懂自己
往往两个人多亲密 是透过伤害来证明
像焦虑不安我就任性
怕泄漏你怕 所以你生气
我爱你让我听 你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你我想亲 你倔强到极限的心
我撑起所有爱 围成风雨的禁地
挡狂风豪雨 想让你喘口气
被割破的信心 需要时间痊愈
梦想缠着怀疑 未来看不清
就紧紧的拥抱 去传递能量和勇气
我爱你
我爱你我想去 未知的任何命运
我爱你让我听 你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你我想亲 你倔强到极限的心
哪里都一起去 一起仰望星星
一起走出森林 一起品尝回忆
一起误会妒忌 一起雨过天晴
一起更懂自己 一起找到意义
我不要没有你 我不能没有你
绝不能没有你

rangwozaimenglikandaoni haoma

need something to make me happy now.
impossible.

just study..

哄一个人 那是多久以前的事
曾经哄过
今生也只哄她一个
记得 当时的害怕,担忧,不知如何是好
怕她会离开我
真的怕.
怕她生气
怕她伤心
怕她哭
因为她的笑容真的是我的一切
她的笑
是那么天真,可爱,阳光
对,
她真的是我的阳光,
我的太阳

我的心,
眼睛
都向着她
无时无刻地
笨笨地
无可救药地
自然地
不知为何地

就这样..

我的心
都是她的影子

多久了
很久了..
我没办法
真的
阻止不了

想到她 心会 空虚，痛，思恋她
曾经我跟她说过
没见她几天
我真的会得相思病， 想着她的病
真的会

一切都是个错
开始就是个错

是我自作自受.

读书吧
读书也想她
我完蛋了（苦笑）

i m y

watch ff7 videos and make myself feel sad..
sigh.
tired.
what can i do.
maybe by making myself tired helps me to forget.
i need to.
i think i will go crazy someday.
will i?

live in dream,can?

running is tiring