I could answer this question with a show of my hand, all fingers spread out.
I'm person who is not good at maintaining relationships since young. I had a couple of good friends in primary school, but none of them i still kept in contact with.
All my close friends are either in sceonday school or in junior college. However we don't keep in touch very often. It used to be monthly, but slowly it became quarterly. I'm also not a person who like texting and calling.
Is that weird?
As we grew older, our path went about differently, separately . I'm spending more time by myself.
I'm definitely okay with it. Actually I have being doing it since uni days where I would go somewhere by myself, enjoying the weather or scenery.
However, there were times when things were tough. It would be nice to get some encouragement, but I'm person who worried that these could be an extra burden to my friends...so I didn't reach out.
Also, I think it's hard to form friendships in company. I'm not sure if it's the nature of my work or it's just me. For 3 out of the 4 roles that I had, I'm just by myself. No team mates, and now I have no manager haha. Probably I'm just fated to be alone.
Just hoping that this difficult time could pass soon. It's s hard for me to focus on other aspects of life without "surviving" through this. Please. Give me some luck since I had done my best.
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